That Sir, is Pure Fantasy.
BOYS… and I have always had some interesting times. My confidence is unusually high (*note- not conceded, i am flawed but i embrace my flaws) so i tend to attract a lot of random men. mostly it’s unwanted yet flattering, sometimes it’s welcomed and sometimes it’s downright stalker-ish.
I have been spending some time with an old friend as of late- let’s call him Puck. He is amazingly fun, funny, good personality, and I’m certain that at a moment’s notice he would marry me and fly off to wherever. That’s where my problem is. I am taken. Not married, not engaged, but committed. I LIVE with the guy. I love him and have never, will never cheat… so i find my friendship with Puck troublesome. I like him, a lot, and in another lifetime, MAYBE would date him (truth be told, he’s not my type physically, he’s cute enough but just not my thing) so is it fair for me to be his friend knowing that he REALLY likes me?
I don’t want to be a cock-tease of a bitch that leads him on… but to be honest part of me enjoys the attention. Although mostly, I enjoy my conversations with him. I truly try to avoid flirtation and any ambiguous statements.
Puck helps me out by running with me on occasion. I don’t have any other running buddies at the moment. Unfortunately, a lot of my friends are fatasses, lazy, too busy or too far.
A few days ago, I went running by myself at this beautiful park. It was about 11am, good weather, hardly anyone at this quiet park that has a nice path that stretches for at least a few miles… I begin my run, about half way through, I pass a man running on the opposite direction. He looks at me, smiles and I think nothing of it… A few minutes later, he is behind me. I move to the side and slow down to let him pass. I keep running for a few more minutes then turn around to head back toward my car. Again, I feel someone behind me, I look back and it’s that guy. I slow down again to let him by, he runs off ahead pretty fast and then goes off to the grassy park area to the right. I think “ok, finally lost him”. I decide to run all the way back to my car- I look ahead to the right and the man is staring at me- watching me- in a creeper mexican man gawker type fashion. He begins to jog to the left slowly as to try to intercept our paths. I continue to run, a little faster- pepper spray in hand. He is behind me AGAIN. I make it to my car and quickly yet calmly get in. He passes my car and stares at me, but keeps going…
This whole situation creeped me out. Maybe he was just trying to hit on me but came off stalker-ish? Not sure what his intentions were but the park stretches for miles and to keep getting behind me was strange.
I realized: a pretty girl should not go running alone in semi-remote park areas.
For this reason, I want Puck to continue running with me. He motivates me, it’s fun, we have good conversation and like spending time together. And i know i won’t get bothered with him running near me.
But I still think, unless he gets a girlfriend or dates someone, it will get harder for Puck to spend time with me if he is crushing.
When do I know to pull the plug? Am I being selfish? Should I just end the friendship or should I reinforce the conditions?
What I do know-Puck- is that it is unlikely that you will sweep me off my feet, i will leave my boyfriend to marry you and we will move away and live happily ever after. That kind of shit only happens in fairy tales. The reality is, life is much more complicated than that.