Hoping for Hope.
I think my relationship is ending.
I don’t know for sure. But I do know that I’ve become unhappy. Last night, We cuddled on the couch and held each other. We talked a lot and it seemed positive. He opened up, I opened up and I felt for the first time in a while that we were going to be alright.
The calm before the storm.
This morning, while making breakfast, he knocks over some books into the sink as I was washing a dish out. The books get wet and he gets mad at himself, but takes it all out of me, become snappy, short, and mean.
I call him out on it. It seems to improve slightly.
Fast forward to after breakfast, I’m online and see an article about a lawsuit having to do with the inhumane filthy conditions that the pigs used for the McRib live in, I read a little out loud to him, specifically the part about what parts are in the meat and he starts defending it and gets an argumentative tone.
I was reading a statement. Not looking to start a debate. And I know for a fact he doesn’t even like the McRib or even McDonald’s food. What gives?
It really upset me, and I try to explain my feelings. It turns to him yelling at me as I am crying, saying he is entitled to his opinion.
Note: I am a LONG time vegetarian and supporter or animal rights and he KNOWS this.
I don’t know what to do anymore.
I have no one to talk to about this except for guy friends that like me and might see this as a crack to try to make their move (which i don’t want to deal with right now) or people that are related or mutual friends.
I am really really sad.
Last night made me very hopeful, but today makes me feel like there was no hope to begin with.
